Moments of madness

Moments of madness
now seemingly welcomed
as my mind realizes
that it’s just that
my mind
Such a powerful
source of lies
and betrayal
Memories altered
upon each recollection
Pasts reflections
creating current projections
of love
or hate
for what lays before me
Not from what I see
yet a part of me
that has preconceived notions
on invalid labels
My youth
a story unto itself
yet my mind still holds strains
of my 8 year old self
Pains
that I know
led me to knowing
is that the problem?
Knowing
Not feeling
Trusting
A journey
into my heart
the most painstaking path
I believe I’ve travelled
To find
that my mind
has been a traitor
this whole time
The only way free
is to fucking forgive
me?
Damn!
How do I do that?
So many wrongs
I never have righted
so many friends lost
yet not forgotten
So many judgements
upon my way
of being
not seeing
that its the way
we all learn
to just be
A wake up call
came
upon a trip
in to nothing
Such a bliss filled space
of well
no thing
No need
to remind myself
who I am anymore
as I am
each now
not
what I was
before

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8 thoughts on “Moments of madness

  1. mrinsatiable

    A poem for you my dear…
    Our mind
    Full of thought
    Memories
    Good and bad
    Manifested
    and indoctrinated truths
    Conjured beliefs
    Confusion
    Chaos
    Our heart
    Full of life
    Love
    And truth

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